Kylie: Will I Ever get to walk down the aisle?
(dailymail.co.uk) - Kylie Minogue says she still dreams of having children but fears she might never walk down the aisle.
The 40-year-old star has given her most revealing interview since her battle with cancer last year.
Despite speculation that she might get back together with her ex-fiance; Olivier Martinez, she makes it clear that they are not an item.
And she admits she feared that her career would be damaged when her breast cancer was diagnosed in May 2005.
"I want to keep working on finding perfect harmony within my life and my work," the Australian pop diva tells Glamour magazine. "And a family, yeah, that's still something I would love to happen.
"It has become very complicated but we'll see. Contrary to reports in the papers, though, I am not having all these weird treatments."
She admits: "There have been times when we were getting ready for a big event, like the opening of my exhibition at the V& A, and there's a last minute hoo-ha and we're all running around like headless chickens and I've said, 'Imagine if we were getting ready for my wedding!'.
"We'll see. I honestly don't have a feeling one way or the other if I will walk down the aisle."
The singer's four-year romance with French actor Martinez ended early this year after he was linked with Israeli model Sarai Givati. Penelope Cruz was also forced to deny rumours she was dating the actor.
There was speculation in July that Miss Minogue was seeking a reconciliation with Martinez after the pair were spotted dining in Paris.
But in the interview she confirms that they are not together, saying: "I think he has a girlfriend, I'm not entirely sure."
The singer has been linked with music producer Calvin Harris in recent months.
Although she remains on good terms with most of her exboyfriends, she adds that she is not ready to be friends with Martinez.
"I don't like confrontation. You can be civil and friendly but to have a proper friendship, you need to allow a certain amount of time to pass."
She says her battle with cancer profoundly changed her as a person.
"What I believed before my ill-ness has only been enhanced since, and that's that beauty comes from within. But I don't see myself the way other people see me.
"When you are stripped of everything and you have to grow your eyelashes back, grow your hair back, it's just astonishing.
"It is hard to express what I have learnt from that, but a deep physiological and emotional shift has happened."
Miss Minogue admits that during her illness she had "shrunk to nothing" and at other times "ballooned", adding: "My body is not what it used to be but it is the body I am in."
When her cancer was diagnosed, the star was in Australia in the middle of her sell- out Showgirl tour.
She resumed the Australian tour in November 2006 and staged a New Year's Eve concert in London followed by a six night stint in January.
She said she thought her contract might be cancelled by the company launching her perfume, Coty, when it was revealed she had cancer.
"I really thought I might be dropped. And they said, 'We're here and we're not going anywhere'."
The interview comes as she prepares to release an album which she started recording when she was still unwell.
She said: "I had just taken my scarf off (the headscarf she wore to conceal her hair loss during cancer treatment) and wanted to reassure myself I could still do what I did before.
"So the first chance I got, I went into the studio for a week and went nuts."
In the interview Kylie describes sun block as her "beauty secret" adding: "Since my illness, so many people have commented on my skin. It's weird."
• The November issue of Glamour is on sale this week.