(metro.co.uk) - Actress Halle Berry has revealed she tried to commit suicide over her failed first marriage. The 40-year-old admitted she was so miserable in the wake of her break-up with baseball player David Justice that she attempted to gas herself.
But she pulled out at the last minute after thinking of her mother Judith and deciding ending her life would be selfish. "I was sitting in my car, and I knew the gas was coming when I had an image of my mother finding me," Berry told Parade magazine. "She sacrificed so much for her children, and to end my life would be an incredibly selfish thing to do. "It was all about a relationship. My sense of worth was so low. "I had to reprogramme myself to see the good in me. "Because someone didn't love me didn't mean I was unlovable. "I promised myself I would never be a coward again."
Berry described her second marriage, to singer Eric Benet, as "really horrific". "We were in sex rehab after one year," the Oscar-winner said. "I wish I had left then, but I was putting everyone's needs before mine."
The twice-divorced actress has been dating 31-year-old male model Gabriel Aubry for the past year. She has ruled out another marriage but is determined to have children. "I've accomplished things I never thought I would," Berry said. "Now my sights are set on a different chapter in my life, which is motherhood. "That's the goal I have very clearly set for myself."